Lying on bed right now, having my own bed a bit far of touch of somebody else because this virus is very infectious. haha yeah this more like a zombie attack than a virus. i'm off of school for few days based on the doctor recommendation and i'm a bit happy for that.No, i really am happy.
not doing anything is somehow like time playing its knife around my skin. Yea actually not doing anything is not that bad, if you're good at it. you can do reflection, contemplation,meditation, simply enjoy it with your own way, and stuff that's just a bit hard getting my patience for. yea my patience is a dragon it needs more training.
too much i thought about how is "letting go" like, i know i have to let go, all the problems i have is because i collect so much rather than let go. expectation, attachment. and its like pulling more strings around your body, pull it tight, and let it torture you. you only get happy because you pull more, you have more string, you just don't know what it has caused to your palm skin or to your body. and letting go, is like loosening all of the strings off yourself.
see, i have idea about it. but when it comes to practice, my impatience overthinker side is like "how is letting go.." "ok, i'm letting go..." "is it supposed to be like this? aha bet it is!" "that was letting go! shit i'm still thinking about it." "how the fuck is letting go!?!"
wo o, congrats, you're pulling more strings.
haha letting go is simply when you just... let go and no longer question about it. because you also let go the ideas of letting go.
and well, i made few of drawing using a digital pen tablet i bought from my brother's friend. it's labelled "genius" but no sorry, its you who need to get more emotionally genius to get used to it.
not doing anything is somehow like time playing its knife around my skin. Yea actually not doing anything is not that bad, if you're good at it. you can do reflection, contemplation,meditation, simply enjoy it with your own way, and stuff that's just a bit hard getting my patience for. yea my patience is a dragon it needs more training.
too much i thought about how is "letting go" like, i know i have to let go, all the problems i have is because i collect so much rather than let go. expectation, attachment. and its like pulling more strings around your body, pull it tight, and let it torture you. you only get happy because you pull more, you have more string, you just don't know what it has caused to your palm skin or to your body. and letting go, is like loosening all of the strings off yourself.
see, i have idea about it. but when it comes to practice, my impatience overthinker side is like "how is letting go.." "ok, i'm letting go..." "is it supposed to be like this? aha bet it is!" "that was letting go! shit i'm still thinking about it." "how the fuck is letting go!?!"
wo o, congrats, you're pulling more strings.
haha letting go is simply when you just... let go and no longer question about it. because you also let go the ideas of letting go.
and well, i made few of drawing using a digital pen tablet i bought from my brother's friend. it's labelled "genius" but no sorry, its you who need to get more emotionally genius to get used to it.
Falling.
Off the Limit.
My Ease.
First of all: get better soon!
ReplyDeleteAnyhow, I love a number of your metaphors [guess I'm gonna plagiarize them occasionally :) ]:"more like a zombie attack than a virus" and "my patience is a dragon". And this sentence "not doing anything is not that bad, if you're good at it" is great also.
And your drawings are marvellous, even though you are ill. Obviously a real artist at heart!.
thankyouu!! you're good at making my day haha
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