Portrait Painting : Aliyah

my first time to find this one kind ever, and no regret!

At first she seems pushing away people, by throwing the most of "I don't want you." face, enough to get them pretty intimidated, enough for you to crash your smile into an auto awkward mode, enough to break your "hi" into a shaky, squeaky tone. Get to know her better until you can chill with it.

She could dig out all of her opinion about someone or something, all explained from A to Z. Don't forget to add some more spicy words, that's how she marks her presence. People might think she is not a really positive person, that is a sign that you need to get to know her better!

She says it all out, the honest answer most of people won't be brave enough to say. Her mouth is a stream line where the words are rushing out. I could listen to her same story over three times, for she is so into telling a story and she wont stop until (almost) all of her inner circle hear it. And as I am still around, I could mumble in mind the words coming next as she went on talking to other. Her words might at first seem judgemental, but hey that is what all of the people do, people judge. the difference is, some keep it all buried inside with the hatred secretly carried away, and some others pour it all out. Not to say to keep on judging, of course. But really, sometimes her honest opinion and answer is actually something you want to hear, or something you want others to hear, because you're not there yet to give away your honest opinion.

Even though she won't filter her mouth for the people she doesn't really like, she is pretty careful toward people she cares about, people she likes to be around with.

She doesn't really like being judged, she hates people judging herself, but the cool thing is she is not that fearful with judgement that it doesn't stop her from saying what she wants to say. Sometimes I wish her to shut up becauseI I am the one worrying herself being judged. I think once she stands on a true ground, she will be a hero of many.

For her, it is better to get out of crowd where she feels out of place and be alone, than trying to fit in to something far off from her personal preference or idealism. Not to say it is good or bad, but the ideas of not fearing to stand out of crowd is quite something.

Once she likes and loves someone, she will accept that person in and out, stand for that person, defend what she/he thinks is right, no matter what other people think. I see it myself.

Her face says it all! Her facial expression is the most honest truth she can say without words. Once she feels sad, it is like the heavy dark cloud following her all the way she goes. Her mind is all stormy and no matter how hard she try to curve her lips to smile, you still know something is wrong. And there is not much anybody can do to help her day shining again, unless to just let it flow and let everything around naturally play roles.

She won't say anything nice for one she does not think deserve. Vice versa.

I love it when she is so pumped up that she might burst out into a silly idiot girl. She might call my name from distance, with the excitement she came to me running and smiling and told me story and jokes. It is just a simple story and sometimes not that exciting too (HEHE), but damn yea who cares when all you can see is such a damn wide smile and the voice that breaks into laughter. It does not happen everyday (193x more often since she broke up) but once this day comes, she is like a dynamite sun, wide smile is carried wherever she goes, she says a nice honest thing we won't all confident enough to say.

I think once she can let go of her burden and whatever it is that she put on her back, and love herself more and more, she would become that most honesttt, brave, and happppiiiieeesttt girl alive!!


So one time she asked me to make a portrait painting of her. I have never done any on canvas before, and i thought it would be a nice first experiment with colors. So I tried.

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