Crumpling My Finger

My holiday was an half day being anxious. I felt pulled into the comfort zone of not doing anything but at the same time i knew it was not a right thing, i got to do lots of things. Big event and news will come ahead, so the preparation needs to get more into details. (I'm on the last year of high school) Life would become much much more tough and i got to get my self up to its level! (More is better) 

it's time to be persistent.

I am now on my attempt to get into my highest productivity as good as possible. To write, draw, whatever. Often I serve my self with a blank paper, Grabbing a tool in my hand I challenge my self to do something. I had no idea at all. The starting point usually went awkward, but as i went on the idea rushing over along the way, which I never expected. It is now quite addictive to know what's all buried down inside, what diamond would coming up on the surface, which we never know before.

Last night i got stroke by sudden brief idea to make something. I had bought 10 artcarton paper. I knew it would be useful for my project which was not a clear vision yet. So I decided to open it up on my desk, then went on with sewing thread and rose. The ideas of the objects just came along.

Soon i got busy with my finger.

hahaha the ending says it all!

I went on.

Be the beauty you want to love

Be the beauty you want to love

Be the beauty you want to love

Be the beauty you want to love

Be the beauty you want to love.

have a nice day.

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#1. You Are...

Why do you think I become so depressed like this?

Because you’re a very real nice dude but sadly blind.

What?

Yea you won’t have your eyes really see the true you. You want others open their blindness while 

you are the one who is all blind! Get all the barriers away here! (swiping her eyes)

How do you assume that?

How do you pretend you won’t be assumed that way?

Hey!

Hey! Come on now, people like to be seen in a way they want to be seen. In a way to construct their delusional perfect image of themselves. My words are something you want to hear because it is something you never hear from yourself! Come, listen to me

What’s now?

You are beautiful

what?

(taking a mirror) watch your face, you’re blushed like a tomato. You know why?

Because.. I’m.. flattered?

Because you finally hear the word you want to hear all your life. 

but there are so many who is more than me.

and there are so many who thinks the way you do too.

So what I need to do more often is..

yes, look at me.

What are you doing??

Giving my self a warm hug. For all the weirdness..

For all the beauty that they don't want to have on screen

For my insecurity 

For the authentic me to be the one and only...

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Inhuman Greedy Eyes

couple days of school holiday has past but not yet a new post is made. i feel kind of guilty for my blog. sorry dear, sorry for everything that I've done.

turn off this nonsense glee drama.

well, my productivity button hasn't fully switched on. i haven't made any new masterpieces so farrr, uh. i really need an on button soon, before this priceless holiday is over and i end up regret things. if you have a clue to sweep away this moody, please let me know.


by the way about the title.. i'm just sometime sick of how we praise money. people nowadays are so rawrrr about money. i hate to hear people debating nominal price, with high tone, cold atmosphere. especially when they used to love eachothers.

a simple fire can burn it off, it's just stack of papers. it's made of trees. why'd still treat it like a God?

we can buy happiness with that, but unconsciously when money comes to the only focus, and we want to collect as much as we can, we stomp real happiness in the process of chasing it. we lose real happiness for an illusion we call being happy. that's why wise people say money can't buy happiness.


i made one digital art yesterday, related to greediness. i don't know what this type is called. collage?

those inhumane greedy eyes

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DEVILS BEHIND MY BACK

"Shake It Out" - FLORENCE AND THE MACHINE

Regrets collect like old friends
Here to relive your darkest moments
I can see no way, I can see no way
And all of the ghouls come out to play

And every demon wants his pound of flesh
But I like to keep some things to myself
I like to keep my issues drawn
It's always darkest before the dawn

And I've been a fool and I've been blind
I can never leave the past behind
I can see no way, I can see no way
I'm always dragging that horse around

Our love is questioned, such a mournful sound
Tonight I'm gonna bury that horse in the ground
So I like to keep my issues drawn
But it's always darkest before the dawn

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh whoa

And I am done with my graceless heart
So tonight I'm gonna cut it out and then restart
'Cause I like to keep my issues drawn
It's always darkest before the dawn

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh whoa

And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
And given half the chance would I take any of it back
It's a fine romance but it's left me so undone
It's always darkest before the dawn

Oh whoa, oh whoa...

And I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't
So here's to drinks in the dark at the end of my road
And I'm ready to suffer and I'm ready to hope
It's a shot in the dark aimed right at my throat
'Cause looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Well what the hell I'm gonna let it happen to me, yeah

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh whoa

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Free Your Mind, Free Your Imagination

Aren’t you amazed by the power of brain? For specific, the power of the imagination? Images you’ve never seen in real life, freely spinning in your mind. dead or not existing creatures are turned alive, freely making motion in your mind. An idol you’ve never met personally, suddenly become the closest partner of you in your mind. some places you’ve been dying for, suddenly have its wind smoothly kissed your skin in your mind. You can form anything for free. thousand pieces of paper seem not enough to have your imagination pour on it.

Let’s create your state of imagination, Let's get drown from reality.

Then stick pair of wing on your head, let it fly.

 and enjoy your journey.

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