Beginning of Holiday

As I scrolled down the posts and have a quick read, there are plenty of them with cheer tone opening saying how happy I am having this holiday, or how crap I feel when it's about to meet the end. Well probably this is another one.

HAPPY HOLIDAAAY. :D

My holiday has been going pretty well so far, nothing so glimmering and stuff but not boring too. It's pretty sad seeing people in holiday stating how bored they are while I remember they were so enthusiastic welcoming the holiday on the end of the schooldays. That gives you a bit of idea that no ideal place is somewhere to be found, to fit you well if you can not enjoy whatever happens now. wo ho im starting again.

well about holiday, My friend and I had committed  to create and post an artwork each day as the stimulation of our productivity. Yeah this holiday is pretty crucial and would be such a big lost if not spent well.  Because once we make a comeback on the first day of school, we will be on our last grade of highschool and ought to face bunch of university entrance preparation, such as national exam and other additional exercises and exam, probably in order to get your score higher so it will helps you on fitting a seat of certain good university. (yeah people criticize this whole bullshit education system.)

Thinking about how busy it might be, we should make time really well for the whole out of academy activity now. After a long pause on making new artwork, finally I decided to paint something. The canvas was out of stock at home so I went around the corner and found my old artwork which was pretty mess. It was made on my 5th grade, an attempt of practicing what I've just saw an impressionist painter did.

After making lots of strokes with a little experiment, this how it turned out.

It was enough to stimulate me doing another painting so I created another, not yet going out to have new stock of canvas so I rolled around and found another old painting which the color was too dark so I put random color over it and ciaaaaaaaaattt!

they are acrylic on canvas.

I have some more paintings done this holiday but probably on next post.

thanks, have a nice holiday!

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"Seeking Through The Darkness."

Been few months leaving the last post on my blog haha I'm sorry very bad of me.

it's 2014 in few days ahead, but so what, we should be charged by new hope, dream, and action by every day, even second, not once a year. number is illusion of "real" life. well, i think we're all schizophrenia disorder, who can't differentiate which one is reality and illusion.

There's time when you start to think who you really are. Sometime you have to find the reality by going deep and deeper into yourself, find what's all shown on the way and what has been buried down.


I made a video of my speedpainting titled "Seeking Through The Darkness."

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Blood, Bitter, Dark, Mystery

In this lovely holiday, most of my time is spent for reading, reading and writing. not so much time for art so far, but now the passion feels starting to bloom again.

But i thankful for loving those three things. reading, writing, and creating (painting or drawing). because they all stick to eachother. they affect eachother. while reading, i create my own state of fantasy, opinion. my improving thought is poured through writing.
the emotion and fantasy i get when i read book, is poured through painting. on my canvas.
afterward, i write about the result here.

i think everything sticks to eachother. everything. we just have no idea about the complexity of how brain works. absorb things and mix it up, and where will it end up is up to you. Praise God.

in the lovely morning of... well i don't know what day is it now. (effect of holiday) I woke up and had a glance on my painting tools. i really miss that feeling when i paint. after little bit thinking of what to paint, i decide not to think.

the emotion effect of psycho thriller novel titled kitarsis I read over last night is still fresh in me. blood, bitter, dark, mystery. the emotion is still strong.

so I give it all to my intuition.

and here what it gives back.

acrylic on A3 Canson watercolor pad.

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Be One with Nature (Another abstract)

wow I love this week, because it is a week of holiday for all the highschool in Indonesia. but most of all, i could do all  my hobbies in peace and it got me so productive. I've written 4 posts (this post is counted) for this blog and 2 for other blog in this week, I'm creating art like crazy, watching movies, reading books and so on. (have i mentioned homework?)

so i made another painting yesterday. another abstract. you probably still wonder the style of my artwork because you find many kind of medium and style scattered here on my blog hehe. i dont focus in only one stream. my artwork is not forever abstract or forever portrait or doodle because  i'm a kind of moody and i love to make something new that attracts me. that's why you'll find many different things here. or that's probably because i still on my way to find the best for me. it's not a big deal though, as i do enjoy what i'm working on.

lately abstract has its turn to entice me. It is a very good way to experiment things. I can fully muster all my feelings into the canvas by abstract. often the ideas come as the progress is going like a painting i did yesterday. i had no idea what would it be. but as i kept my hand moving, the idea suddenly came up like a whoooosh

as i'd stung by concrete idea, the soul gathered in one and pour its self through the brushes.

here is the painting i made yesterday and little step of how did it go

still didn't know what was it going to be

final result : 

BE ONE WITH NATURE 

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A War Victim's Heritage

you're on the boat on the middle of the sea. Suddenly you see a floating box and grab it. you hardly uncover it and put out what inside there. a letter?

"I'm a war victim. one of thousands.

the bruises, tired, and hungry streak is nothing compared to our fear hearing the sound of cracking gun, hissing grenade and finally a boom. 
we run our barefoot. fast. until i feel like no ground beneath. it feels more like flying.


No wonder we take sleeping as great reward. 
I pinch hard my own cheek every morning just to find out if I really am still alive. 
I move my finger to the nostril of my beloved around, just to know if they're still breathing. don't know whether my reaction will be a breathe out of relief or burst of tears. 

when people from other part of world curiously wonder when will they die, we're here more lucky because we've got the certain clue. it's close. 
now fingers are here to count the remaining minutes of life. we wait for each turn.

death also counts its finger. day by day, I've lost many.

seeing them, the beloved toppled down dying from being shot and starving just meters away, even less, and this sight cross straight through my eyes. how it is now horrifically a daily view.

are you people still scared of blood? good news, now to me blood is only red liquid, that's all. 

don't know when is the end page of this thriller book going to show up. it's like they keep adding the writing, forcing us to face more chapter. we're tired of this non-stop killing routine. 

now i question hard something.

are we(war victims) the only human on this earth? 
I heard that population of human race reach billions. where are they? isn't our screaming caught by their ear?! or do they just cover it and pretend like there is no sound?!

not all of them keeping the devil soul inside, that was what i trusted. but now i doubt it.



I don't know where this wave will bring my letter to. i just need to flow all my sorrow and pain away."

you catch a sight of smaller box inside it and open it. which inside is.......

acrylic on small canvas

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All Has It.

I call the outsider a "people". Forget that I am also a "people" through their eyes. sometime i want to blowing and shout out all the hard time i have, what i have been through, and what i suffered and sacrificed so "other people" will know and understand me for just little more. Forget that I'm not the only main artist in this theater of life. forget that other people feel the same in vary ways, that they have been going through hard time and  painful moment too. even much heavier compared to mine.

tidied up deep inside them.

was started spontaneously

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The Untold City

well it's only 2 days left until i finally back to school again. it feels like the last post of my holiday welcome cheers was only written few days ago. please bring me back to the first day of holiday please oh please T_T bafttt, ;_; okay, face this. back to school. lost in daily routinity. drown under stack of notes full of wild alphabets and numbers that will be meaningless by next year. really, i wont make it sounds that bad... but.... it does..

nevermind, they say rainbow will appear after the rain.

and well.. as the holiday time I had was already less than 55 hours, i decided to make a painting. i was interested to try abstract painting of city so here we go.

I really do enjoy how i can let the brush dancing salsa freely on canvas as a dance floor and create the colors for every move. and ended up like...

i name this "the untold city"

it's using acrylic on 20x20 cm sized canvas. done in 2 hours and half.

thanks people, enjoy the last seconds of your holiday wisely! good luck! :p

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Let The Pen Run Wild.

so we've all already been on exciting holiday.... and..............i'm super happy for that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (seriously, i dont exaggerate those command marks, I'm really that happy!)

and only couple days to count before we reach 2013. 2013. ohyeah 2013!! just wonder how fast we've already gone through every single days until it almost reaches the end of a year again. omg i hope 2012 wasn't another year gone to waste. the change on last number of year doesn't have any mean if we just stay the same and not making any positive change, right? yes, right. (?!) and by the way i still have no planning for the new year celebration. any  idea? :p

haha okay, that's the good news. by the way,  i produce lots of artworks recently. feeling like recently was the highest productivity in my life, so far. i hope in 2013 i'll produce at least twice more than this year. hopefully it will hit at least 200 amounts of artworks. which mean i'll surely be more often updating this blog too. :p hope this will really happen and not just a blah!

okay, some of the artworks were made spontaneously. like these two artworks. let the pen run wild.

yeay merry christmas and happy new yeaaaar!

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